2/1/09 - Miss Anti-Social

I broke the cycle today. I didn't take a picture today. I don't know what it was about today, but I just felt like I didn't want to see/talk to anyone. I think my social meter hit the top and I needed a break. Of all days to hit a social wall, Superbowl Sunday. I had kickball games, and Superbowl parties to go to, but I didn't go to any of them and I was perfectly happy and content with that. I slept in until around 10, which is something I rarely get the chance to do anymore. I watched a little T.V. and had some breakfast then cleaned the kitchen, which needed to be cleaned in the worst way, after that I started cleaning up the dining room and living room etc. I was just in the mood to clean so I figured I'd better get as much done as I could. I would've done more, but David got home from the Kickball game so we talked a little about that and the other, etc. It sounded fun, but I was still glad I stayed in. Besides, it's not like I stayed in and did nothing. I kept busy with things that I wanted/needed to get done, but just don't get a chance to do during the week. I even got caught up on my postings of this blog. I was about 3 or 4 days behind. I had taken the pictures, just hadn't had a chance to post them yet.

I read a book a few years ago called "Please Understand Me" and it was loosely based on the Myers Briggs testing. In the beginning you took a test. The results are totaled and you're given a 4-letter identifier. This identifier is to summarize your personality. I think mine was IFNJ. Anyway the "I" actually stands for "Introvert". I didn't believe it myself, at first . I would have never put myself in that category, but when I read the explanation, it all made sense and explained so many things. I wanted to go back to all my old friends and boyfriends and tell them, "hey, this is why I acted this way or that way!"
I can be outgoing and I can get up in front of a room of strangers and talk to them like I've known them for years and I could dance on tables if I wanted to, though most times I've chosen not to...but I'm still an introvert. Being and introvert doesn't mean I'm incapable of engaging a stranger in conversation or make me a hermit (at least not most of the time), but it does mean that it takes a more energy for me to be outgoing and engage people in conversations. Some people, "Extroverts" are energized and feel alive when amongst groups of other people, they thrive on it, prefer it even, but for me it depletes my energy and makes me feel run down after a while. Every now and then I need a break; some time to spend with myself and not worry about having to entertain or please anyone else. I need this time to re-charge if you will. It doesn't mean that I don't like people or that I don't want to spend time with them, I just need a little break, that's all. Lately I've been feeling like my social fuse, for lack of a better word, is much shorter than it used to be and I also feel like it takes me longer to "recover". Maybe it's just getting older. I don't know.
Anyway, I hope everyone had fun at their respective Superbowl parties and I apologize to those that invited me only to have me not show up. I think I told most of you I wasn't going, but in case I forgot or you didn't get the message in time, please don't take it personally. "It's not you, it's me! :)